a stop on the track.

Finally, I've decided to further my education. Everything's almost on track except some minor issues. Yeah! I'm happy.

consciousness

I can't seem to get these out of my mind.

• Postgrad - Can't seem to make up my mine. Need to do so or else it'll be too late to join the next intake.
• Outstanding debts - Eventhough it is out of my control, I still need to settle everything as soon as possible.
• Work - Notice to be given. The pressure to perform and outshine myself. Indescribable.
• The future - How to survive and to ensure that future goals and aims are attained. To see how everyone else around me succeed in life but I am still stuck at where I am now.

Another song of the day.

The love story.
It keeps playing in my head.
Beautiful lyrics and mesmerizing music.
Taylor Swift, talented and pretty.

This is one from Jon Schmidt, Love Story meets Viva La Vida. Amazing fusion. I wonder when will mine start.

Music of my life.

Fell in love with this song.
Can't stop listening to it since early of the year.

The sound of silence

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,

Left its seeds while i was sleeping,

And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams i walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light i saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.

"fools" said i,"you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that i might teach you,
Take my arms that i might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence

the mid year wind

When the atmosphere is cool and windy.
Sitting down at the porch, having a cup of hot tea observing the sun setting down the horizon.
Now, that's life.

York.
A beautiful laidback place. Perfect for a calm and serene lifestyle.
Loves the historical architectures.

happily ever after?

Girl: Mom, is there really such thing as happily ever after? Are you sure Snow White and her prince charming live happily ever after in the castle far far away?
Mom: It says so in the story.

Questions to asked by the girl was left unanswered. This gave her hope that fairytale do exist.

She may be the lucky 'princess' after all.
****
I got this question pondering in my head for the past few months.
I wonder. Happily ever after. Is this practically possible?

The boy and the girl will meet and find their soulmate in each other after some rift. Get married, start a family and live happily ever after till death.

I guess sometimes the fairytales fail to mention the realities of life.

The girl will always be beautiful and fair while the boy will be the handsome prince charming.
We age. Your youth doesn't last forever. In 20 years, you'll wake up and see a different you in the mirror. You will start to worry about your health like you have never before. Anything can happen.

Everyone wants to be the main character of the story and wants to be the 'lucky' one.
The matter of fact is that everyone IS the main character of their story. It is just that the big picture doesn't mention that life doesn't not only revolve around them. Fairytales did NOT mention that everyone's life IS a story waiting to be told.

Did you read about how a perfect love story turn sour in fairytales? Will your first love last forever.
Was it mentioned any where in the context that there are arguments and flying plates & pots. It will be hard pressed even to find out that does.

This is why I think the kids should know. There is no such existence. There are just stories.
Just stories...
Even though the girl grew up to understand, life is no fairytale... but deep down inside, there is always a shimmer of hope that happily ever after really truly exist. The princess in her is buried deep down inside. Somehow or rather, the thought is always meddling with her mind.

the music of my life

It's been a long time since I've been in touch with the musical side of mine. If it still ever exists. I loved the piano when I was four. Music was my life then...
It used to play a very important role in my younger times. Later it become something I detest and fear almost everyday.
My parents and teacher was really strict and of course the traditional way, I was forced to practise everyday for hours. It made my interest slowly fade away.
Now I see that they meant good. My music teacher taught me practise makes perfect. It really does. Even though sometimes I try to skip practise every chance I get...
Music brings happiness and makes me relax. It brings out the emotion and hearing them sometimes brings tears to my eyes. I wished I've paid more attention then. Whenever I hear a piece I wished I have a chance to play them...
I miss my piano. So much...

Shoes for sale!

Now, I have 2 pairs of shoes in my possession for sale. My mom bought it from London but apparently the shoes doesn't fit. Too tight for me so there it goes... For sale!
Sadly yes, it is brand new but I rather not collect dust at home.

A pair of heels and a pair of heel length boots. Unfortunately only size 5 is available.
Here it goes...

Heels from Clarks - Bought from Clarks, London
Size : 5
Colour : Black
Condition : Brand new, just off the shelf with price tag still attached on to the shoes
Original Retail Price : GBP 24.99
Selling Price : RM 80 (negotiable)

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Heel Length Boots from Primark, London
Size : 5
Colour : Black
Condition : Brand new but was the last pair off the shelf (Display set), the sole is slightly chipped. Price tag is still attached to the shoes
Original Retail Price : GBP 12
Selling Price : RM 30 (negotiable)

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Please drop me a comment here and leave me your contact details or email if you are interested. Though I prefer buyers from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia because it is more convenient for me to deliver the goods, I do not rule out the idea just because you are out of town. But if you are out of town, please feel welcome to drop me a comment and we can work out the details later. Cheers.

Thanks for your attention!

glad that last week ended

Last week was one of the worst week of the year.

It somehow made me think that this year wasn't a good year for me.

Maybe because there is too many things to handle at one go, temper flying around and there are some stuff beyond your control. And I DO seriously mean beyond your control. Gave me one of the worst experience ever. EVER. I practically had my heart pounding in my rib cage for 8 hours straight!!
I feel quite pressured at times, eventhough how much I tried to prevent mistakes from coming up, it will definately come up. In some way or other. No matter how hard I try. The guilt.
Somehow or rather being in that position doesn't exactly motivate youself to work harder. It feels demotivating working in such environment. Makes me feel like a failure.
Maybe this is not the field for me.
I feel like I am losing interest. I am just doing it for the sake of doing it. I'm trying my very best to be optimistic.
Life's a challenge. Come on, you can do it. Life is suppose to be enjoyable. It's a learning curve.
I'll look back at the past later and marvel at the achievements through hard times.
There will be a light in the darkness...
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Something that keeps my mood up and keep me hanging there is my next trip to Europe. And also continuing education.
My Mr. Pooh Bear will keep me company.